June 03, 2012
You know, it’s weird seeing people break up and the girl gets a boyfriend right away like nothing ever happened. Calls him the new “love of her life”. I’ve been seein’ this a lot lately. Guys are supposed to be fearless and emotionless in peoples eyes, when in all honesty it breaks their heart. I also find it annoying when girls talk about how hot or attractive a guy is all sexual-like-n-such even if they have a boyfriend. (I mean the kinda guy the girl never talks to but looks at from a distance and goes “dayummn, he fine”) Not that the girl doesn’t like their boyfriend, but trust me your boyfriend doesn’t want you to like him. He wants you to think of him like you would that 200 lb. football player with a 6-pack, to fall for him so much that other guys wont even cross your mind. Its not jealousy, its the fact that the guy wants to mean everything to you, and be your everything. I guess its whatev when girls think of other guys but guys like me don’t even call a girl hot when they got someone already. I have a girlfriend, and a single thought hasn’t crossed my mind about anyone else, and it wont. Thinking that a girl can leave you when she stops finding you attractive scares the shit out of me.
May 31, 2012 - This is ittttttt!!
Reading through some of my older posts I remember how much different my life was, only a year ago. People say “If you read my tumblr, you know me”. But if you read tumblr, from my older stuff up all you would get to see is things I like, and me complaining a lot. Hahaha. I look back and wonder why I liked any of the girls I liked, and think about how lucky I am to have the girl I have now. I mean dayummmmmn, shes a beaut. But this relationship’s real, I don’t consider my past one’s “real”. Just things I had to get through to get to where I am. Idk Ive been pretty positive through it all. Life’s hard but one thing I can guarentee is that you’ll get through it, and it gets better.
It seems to me that too many people I know in person follow my blog now. I hardly go on anymore, and when I do it’s only to reblog pics of stuff I like or whatever. It’s alright, but I have no more reasons to complain or tell you guts useless information that you probably don’t care about x) This blog started off as a venting tool to complain about my not-so-hard-life and ended up as something I dont have time for haha. Anywho, life is good, stay beautiful, and as always hit me up if you needa talk or something. I can be your advice provider ;P Or pill provider, just hit me up!! (not really)..
Dear Mother, Watch Me.
My mom doesn’t believe in me at all. She tells me I won’t be able to make it in life without going to a Four-Year College, that I made the wrong choice. Remember when you told me you would support me in my decision no matter what? Yea, I do. What kind of mother tells you to not go after your dreams, and not let anyone tell you that you cant? Hahahaha, watch me. I got accepted to multiple colleges from AZ to Cali, but I cannot see myself doing anything other than music. So I decided to choose my degree in Audio Engineering and Music/Post Production. It’s a top school in the industry, along with LARS and Berklee. September 7th is my start date. For 8 months I will be in Phoenix learning from people who have made it in the industry themselves. For the last 3 months I will be in LA as an intern working in a studio with well-known artists. You’re guarenteed a job practically anywhere in the country by simply throwing the school’s name around. So mom, thanks for never supporting me in my decisions, that I may feel insecure about them. Thanks for never coming to any of my or my band’s performances, since you’re “too busy”. Once I get a job Im saving every penny to move out in 3 months. Imma do something bigger than you could ever dream of, because appearantly your head is too wrapped around this small little town. No matter what you say, I will continue to say “Watch me”.
May 22, 2012 - Music n’ Such
There’s a difference between saying You Want to be a famous musician and Saying You want to be successful in music. The second one is simply hoping to make a living at what you love more than anything in this world, as well as not being able to see yourself do anything else. Being famous usually comes with no intent of doing so. I obviously can’t see myself doing anything else, do whatever I can to make it work. I just want to be able to do what I love and share it with the world. Levi came up to me at the skate park today and said “I’ve been writing some good stuff the past 2 weeks. I said, “Like, the kinda stuff we normallly write, or actually good?” He said its really good. I’d like to hope so. I really miss our old band Falling off Tomorrow :/ Im not sure what it was but we could write good stuff post it on Youtube and get 1k views, no prob. Sure hope things start to pick up soon…
